Since starting this blog a couple of weeks ago I've thought a lot about it. What to post. What not to post. Potential privacy issues. Do I want it to be a lifestyle blog or a beauty blog? Is it okay to have a lifestyle AND beauty blog in one? What if no one reads it? What if people read it and laugh and think I'm wasting blog space? What if there are not enough pictures, and what if they aren't "pretty" enough. I don't know how to edit photos or make the cute little banner things with wishlists and such. That doesn't mean I will never know, but right now I don't. All of these things have discouraged me, and kept me from writing and posting except for the Sunday Currently posts, which are straight forward.
Tonight while browsing my BlogLovin feed, and browsing new to me blogs (while procrastination on my homework naturally!) I came to the conclusion that none of the above worries matter. What I write, whether no one likes it or follows me, is good enough. My photos whether they are perfectly edited in Photoshop or not, or whether there are even that many, it's good enough. If I want a lifestyle AND beauty blog, I will have it. If I want to post about nail polish or a Spring make up wish list one day, and pictures of my kids the next, that's just what I will do.
I think starting a new blog is intimidating, especially when you read so many other wonderful blogs. But really...the point of blogging is to share your voice. Even if no one reads, I am still putting myself out there and if nothing else it will serve as a reminder to me one day of who I am, and what I've done. Lately, I've been thinking a lot about happiness and what makes me happy and what doesn't make me happy. I've thought about just who it is *I* am. It sounds like a pretty simple question with a pretty simple answer, but once you actually start thinking about it, really thinking about it, it can get pretty intense. Many people struggle with wishing they love certain things, and feel bad that they don't or can't no matter how hard they try. Same goes for personalities and traits. I have began a process of searching and realizing just what these things are and aren't and accepting them. I am on a path to self discovery and self betterment and I expect a lot of posts in the near future will be about just that.
I think it's going to be fun, exciting, and liberating. Maybe I can help other people realize these things as well. And if not that's okay. Because, writing about it here, will open up my eyes to even more things and help me realize even more.